March 31, 2004

The retrogression

Audio playlist: Sting & Eric clapton- It's probably me; The Honey Palace- Quiet Friend, Love Spell
At ten years, the only thing that mattered was getting acquainted with more ten year-olds & maintaining the connections of the old and newly made- friends or just plain enjoyment when they do not need to slog for anything school- related. (In general) The simplicity of life back then.. Ahh... Worries were of small issues concerning studies or friendship/ parental problems The naïveté of the human mind @ that level made everything simple. Happiness? Is obtaining that material object or having fun with mates. How deep can the words "happiness" & "sadness" be?
I think i never REALLY did realise how damn lucky i am for this amount of freedom granted to me. I thought, yeah i'm better off then some others, but only recently do i get the idea of how much i treasure it and am so thankful for that.
Released from the corporate enclave, free from all legal woes, the great sense of relief was just so overwhelming.. Days dogged with worries & rapids of tears about a certain set of demeaning papers which determined my life for 3 months..
So glad to be freed from the ruthless ways of the imperious bitches there. This is a wound that needs a long time to be healed.. I will never forget the emotional turmoil i went thru for those hellish days.. A hard lesson learnt by one of the harshest ways 1 could deal with a 16 year old. Moving on to my next line cashing in the good dough.. 'Nuf 2 make my bread fer e days of pecuniary loss, i hope. *hoot*
An ephemeral captured by the camcorder of an inbuild system...
Just a transitory love, or was it even right to be called so in the first place?
Creeping in, even at the oddest moment, deviating the matter at hand..
Never a day goes by without a thought of you....

Quotable quotes
"Experience is not what happens to a man; it is what a man does with what happens to him."
-Aldous Huxley, Texts and Pretexts

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