Misfit

I don't know how long more i'll feel this way.
It's just the start of the fourth module, and i am starting to feel out of place again.
Not like I have issues getting along with EVERYONE in class and have lecturers hating me, I just am not happy about going to school. I don't look forward to school. Neither do i hate school. I like what I am learning. I just don't like where i am at now. Not location. Situation.

It really doesn't help that there are so many things to remind me of *.
From playing those videos of Oklahoma City & Hallmark advertisements to lecture notes, there would just BE something there to shout "hello memories!"
Popcorn, salted. (How do you eat corn? You put butter, it's salty right.) Beer (I don't like beer, Beer loves me). Cigarettes (Marlboro...dad bought the carton cos' it's expensive here). Starbucks. (I actually don't like to buy from them because they support the war) Gatorade (Our countries' Isotonic drink brands argument) Subway (it's fast food)......

When Matt lectured about "transactional relationship", I wondered, has it just been that...a quick short transaction that lasted the whole of a month?
"Reliability"- Heh, I was warned...the night it happened, * sang something about that.

Two modules ago, Karlie was talking about the things we can do in OC, and mentioned skating, I just broke into a silly grin. Funny she should suggest it just a few days after that trip to the Kallang rink when * expressed that * won't do it again...

These random mentions digs up old memories and it's hard to just brush them aside.
Especially when we act like total strangers now, being in the same room every damn day.
It was a short-lived moment, but in the small span of time, the things we shared were diverse and so basically it's hard to run away from 'reminders'.
Aku rindu loe.......