Alo!
Ah, all hot n sticky is me.. Hmm. U noe da song dat says "What the World Needs Now is Love"? I dun agree with that though. What the world REALLY needs is lot of understanding. What is the word love without understanding from one another? I can love u. But without the understanding, problems would still arise in our relationship. That's what is happening right now in the world. Okay, just look at the situation in ya own home or school.. The friendships u share.. Miscommunication would lead to misunderstanding and helluva lotta problems appear JUST like that.
*Sigh* Just alot of going ons of late.. I've never seen Jul blow up like that before.. Yea. Big scene. Of cos. She wasn't the one REALLY involved in the situation but judging from that, i see and KNOW that it has affected her greatly. It affected me too. I realise how fragile relationships can be. Actually. I probably realise that a long time ago.. Very upsetting if both parties in a bad situation can't express how they feel properly and thus begin a cold war..
E.N., sometimes you make me feel like you're using me alot. I dun wanna feel this way. But, your actions suggest so.. You asked me today in class why i was so cold to u. Heh. That's cos i was irritated with you earlier in the morning. When i talked to you in the bus, you gave me attitude. I really can't take that shit anymore. Which's why u see me with that f.ed-up face. WHAT have you really ever done as a friend for me girl? Everytime i'm out w/you, i feel so stressed. You cannot simply just hang out with me without AN AIM right. You must have a proper destination right. Your time is just too precious to be wasted exploring places and stuff. You're too serious (In my opinion) @ the wrong time sometimes. Whenever you want something from me, you ask for it with a dirty look. I dun like it. It pisses me off. Which's why i am always reluctant to lend you things. It is ALWAYS me lending you my cell, money.. YOU use my mobile MORE than i do when we're out DYA NOE THAT! When you wanna tell me something, you always ask me to go to ya table TO LISTEN, why DUN YA COME OVER TO MY SIDE INSTEAD? YES. I've ALOT of grievances. I just DUN SAY. WHY? I dun wish fer us to happen like Cher and Jin. Doubt it would newae. Itz not like both of us would storm off on each other after alot of swearing. I'm glad fer that. I know i can reason things out with you. Right? But.. U make it so difficult for me to open up to u. Sometimes i wanna tell you things, but.. Many a time i feel that this friendship we share is so.. one-sided? I think i give alot more than what i receive from this fshp. You called me earlier to talk, i said to call me back half an hour later cos i was online. You said "Nevermind la" in that tone.. It's annoying. You are always doing that when you can't get something. You don't realise it huh. But i do. Always. WHEN i say lotsa stuff when u wanna borrow sth, that tone comes up again saying "It's alright" or "Nevermind" but in ACTUAL fact, u r unhapi. I would then give in. I remember little (Well, to you maybe not me) things like that okay.
=( There're so many unhappy people tonight. =(
Oh well, g'bye. Till my next entry, fare thee well. <- E.N. , ya line.